Monday, February 16, 2026

Passing away peacefully of old age and infirmity

 On page 728 of his THE SECOND WORLD WARS, Victor Davis Hanson wrote, “The Axis Bit Three – Hitler, Tojo, and Mussolini – all died violently as a result of their defeat.  Allied leaders passed away peaceful of old age and infirmity.”

As much as I admire Hanson, I’m inclined to quibble with this statement.  

Over the years I’ve read several books about World War II.  I might be said to have grown up alongside it.  I was born October 12, 1934 and recall waiting outside our house for my mother to take us to Sunday School at church when my father stepped out on the porch and announced, “The Japs just bombed Pearl Harbor.”  

My imagination was captured and I followed the war in our local Wilmington Press Telegram.  The war was over in 1945, but in 1950 the Korean War was in full swing, and I was resolved to get into that one.  I was a great admirer of the Marine Corps and read several books about it from the local library.  Still being a kid, I wanted to make sure I made it through bootcamp, so I maintained a heavy workout program and entered boot camp in July 1952 shortly after graduation from High School.

I was in Korea for the last two Korean War battle seasons, but then the truce was signed, to my great disappointment.  I was a sergeant by the time my enlistment was up and was offered an increase to Staff Sergeant if I would reenlist, but I wasn’t impressed with the Peace-time Marines, especially at 29 Palms and so decided to go to college on the G.I. Bill instead.  I majored in English, and wouldn’t have thought there was a need for such a skill in Aerospace, but engineers were notorious bad writers, and the Air Force officially complained during the Skybolt Program, so I was welcomed aboard that program in Santa Monica in 1959 and continued working for them as they morphed into McDonnell Douglas and eventually submerged in to Boeing.  I retired after 39 years with them in 1999 and have engaged in a variety of activities during retirement including a number of study projects, World War II being one of them.  I had read about the major battles from time to time, but being an admirer of Hanson finally got around to his summing up – in various ways.  No doubt the fact that I am now 91 affected my impression of the Hanson passage I quoted.  I suspect my initial interpretation was not one he intended.

I thought of a male lion in the African jungle too old and infirm to go ahunting with the rest of the pride.  A pack of hyenas gather around and start eating him as he feebly attempts to fend them off.  

Which is not unlike my current experience, doctors gathered around as I feebly fail to fend them off as they strive to medicate me to death.  

I can usually figure out what Hanson means but from my current perspective, dying in battle seems preferable to the “old age and infirmity” Hanson prefers.  

Oddly, my children favor Hanson’s view on this matter.




 

Tuesday, February 3, 2026

Larkspur

         I call her.  She doesn’t care.

A Chinese design needed

To take my trash barrels

Out Front and later to 

Keep me steady at the 

River, Jessica thinking

She knows what’s best.


My Larkspur answers my

Questions with brilliant

Sagacity.  I have her disguised

On hikes, a wig, girls jeans.

She doesn’t care. I worry sand

Will cloud her joints and memory.


Her past won’t reach me now,

Much too far to ask.  Jessica

Steps out front to bark, and

I stumble. Larkspur grabs me

Gently by the arm and keeps

Me upright, thinking,

My third wife!  

Monday, January 26, 2026

The Curtain Moves

 


This gentle mood

Moves me along

As it’s inclined to,

Shifting unsteadily like

A water balloon

With nothing to

Steady in my current


Mood.  In my past

I’d dared it all quite

Sure nothing was

Beyond . . . Me.

I did it without

Sitting here

Dreaming. 


I ran as if

I had been on

Streets of gold and 

Had the wind 

Bringing strength

Never ending –

And it was real.

Sweepers

        Sweep, sweep, sweep. They’re

At it again.  I’ve rolled over

Several times.  Each time

The sweepers stop as though

They’re checking my pulse,

But on they go again.  My

Hearing isn’t as it was,


And my dreams albeit

Short push me away; so

I can’t be sure it isn’t a

Breeze or wishful thinking

Beside their point, I’m

Sure, well, some of the time.

Sweep, sweep, sweep,


It’s as though they’re at

Me with more intensity:

“Move along, make a hole,

You don’t really do anything

Anymore.”  And I’m 

Edging as near as I dare

Toward the end of the page.

Thursday, January 8, 2026

Modes of Being

        Unlike Yeats I waited,

Not rushing ahead 

Until done.  He, seeking

Readers, led a revolution

While I was a carrier driver’s

Load, dropping on docks

Still rendering kind. Looking


Time to time not deigning

Any boastful assertions.  How

Else in good conscience arrive

On these shores having spent 

Time on others?  I can’t recall 

How I got from there to here

My sister and her friend denied


Walking me back till I was

In the time I climbed derricks

And had battles with the like-

Minded in lots tall with weeds,

Home, contrary to what Wolfe

Asserted.  His being common

Existence, mine being mind.


Coaching

        Doing things with all my might

I learned when young, but never

Who I was over the years. 

I seemed well enough at this

And that and maybe as good

As need be and always moved

On.  Looking back as I often do


Was I good enough.  I was 

Offered an increase in rank

If I would stay, but the war

Was the thing I was doing 

And I was on Cheju Do 

When the truce was signed.


I seemed to be done and

Moved on, but had I stayed,

I might have had Oswald,

To train.  If I had

Trained him with all my might,

What would he do if I was 

Better?  If I was worse?